A Pretty Pill by Criss Copp

Author:Criss Copp
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: New Adult
Publisher: Criss Copp
Published: 2013-02-10T05:00:00+00:00

Jade.

It’s the countdown week for Silas till he turns 18 on Friday. I’ve paid for a voucher at a tattoo parlour in Newcastle, with a well renowned artist. It’s a $2000 gift voucher; however, since the artist charges $250 per hour, I’ve only really bought Silas two four hour sessions. He’s been discussing for years how he wants to have a theme of biomechanical tats all over himself, as if he’s been through a wringer, and wherever his body has been battered, the skin torn through; his real mechanical self peeks back through from torn flesh. I like the idea, and I’m happy to pay for his first series of tats.

On Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday; my gym is in the morning because I have evening shifts. I know Ben doesn’t do mornings, and it would be nice if he could just make a surprise appearance, but he doesn’t.

By Wednesday, I find I am using the silence to listen to my inner self as I do my work out, and I think... and I think... and I think! I think about how old I am... how much money I have in the bank... what I want to do with my life... and how to cut the overly protective ties that I have with Silas, in order to allow him more freedom and space to become a man!

This last one is hard. I’ve never before realised I was going to one day be in position to allow myself to let him go! For so many years, I’ve placed Silas first; made him the centre of my world, and built my identity around saving him. Without him, am I nothing? Who am I anymore? What made him the reason for me to give myself up? Will someone save me?

I’m in the middle of a jog, and I’m beginning to hyperventilate at the thought of such change and loss; and then I can’t help it; I start to cry, and I’m breathing even more erratic, and then there are pin-points of light, a weird lightness in my head and then there’s total blackness!

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